Opinions are like A** Holes, Everyone Has One

I have learned this more than ever since getting pregnant. I am going to be a first time mother of twins and believe me I need them, but man do they vary. I do not even know who to believe. I am trying to take everyones suggestions and will try whatever works when the babies come, that is if I can afford it.

One decision that seems to really get a reaction is our strong consideration of having an au pair. An au pair, which I cannot say by the way, is a 20 something year old from Europe that will live with us for a year. Of course. Neal and any man you tell the idea loves it and is already asking when they can come over to help with the babies. We do not really have the option of staying home and raising the babies and daycare is much more expensive. The more research we do, the more we realize the decision seems obvious. We have a meeting in a week with the local coordinator to discuss this option further. We also have appointments with other services to figure out what is the best fit. We will never know if we made the best decision, but we are trying our best.

Thoughts at 3am

I have been reading a lot of blogs and message boards related to twins. I came across one womans blog that addressed the sleepless nights that occur right when you find out you are having twins. I read her thoughts and realized I was not so crazy. These were my exact thoughts. I just had to copy this so one day I could look back to determine if these were even valid concerns.

-Twins?! Two?! Of everything?!
-How do you even pick UP two babies??
-Crying: In stereo
-How will we afford diapers
-How do you nurse two???
-Worse, how do you afford formula for two???
-There's 2! TWO!
-I'm going to be HUGE
-Am I even equipped for this?
-TWO?!
-Will we ever sleep again?
-How can I fit two humans in my belly?
-Oh, I can't wait to kiss two sets of soft little sweet newborn lips!
-I need two carseats, how are they going to fit in the car? Maybe we should have bought a minivan
-Do I have the patience in me for this?
-Can I do this?
-Our family identity will forever be changed. We will now be "The Kothes, they have twins."
-I feel so overwhelmed
-I feel so blessed
-How will I ever have the stamina and energy to be a mommy to twin newborns AND be a wife AND hold down a full time job???
-Poor Neal
-I'm going to be HUGE
-We are so lucky, we have wanted this for so long
-Twins. Twins! Twins! :)

I think those that saw us a couple of weeks after finding out about the twins could see it in our faces. A complete deer in headlights look. Now, I cannot wait to meet the babies!